It’s a trying time. I know this means that growth’s happening, and I’m grateful for that, even though it’s not easy.
I tend to retreat…
In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
I won’t allow myself to withdraw (that’s an old way of dealing, you know). But lately I have been exceptionally quiet.
My silence is my self-defense…
The matters aren’t large, like a major romantic disaster — just little bits. But the little bits are many, one after another. Stress piles on until my joint aches match my heart, and it has nowhere to go but out (why does frustration turn to tears?).
Of course, sometimes the little bits, over and over, are worse than one big thing. I told a therapist a couple of years after taking my tarnished wedding ring off that I was lucky because my heart hadn’t really been broken until my early 30s. She said, “Really? I think your heart’s been broken, little by little, for years.”
You can’t see me right now, but take my word for it — I still haven’t fully recovered from that statement.
Because it’s true.
And this is why my eyes are closed
It’s just as well for all I’ve seen…
I’ve sailed calm waters for some time now, but that ended some little bits ago. I’m in the midst of a storm that I’m trying my best to weather. I’m curious to see where this is taking me, but I find myself wishing for a different way to get there (the only way out is through, though…).
I’m letting music speak to and for, soothe, encourage, and heal me. I found this beautiful rendition of this simply lovely song while getting lost on YouTube practicing songs for choir. Although this tune is about romantic love, heartbreak takes many forms, so it’s on repeat.
This, too, shall pass, my grandmother used to say. And it will.
And so it goes, and so it goes…
In the meantime, thanks for reading. And for *listening*…
And you’re the only one who knows…
What is Sunday Song? Well, I’m a musical gal, from my wee days taking piano and drum lessons, to my current stint in a community choir. To me, listening to music is what going to church is for some, so I celebrate with Sunday Song. Each week, I post a song that’s been my earworm for the week or something that reflects what’s happening in my world along with a wee story why. (Feel free to join in by posting in the comments — thoughts about my video/what it means to you, a video you’re enjoying this week, etc.) Also, check out all we do at DaisySmileyFace.com.