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Sunday Song: The Rose and the Thorns

It’s a trying time. I know this means that growth’s happening, and I’m grateful for that, even though it’s not easy.

I tend to retreat…

In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong

I won’t allow myself to withdraw (that’s an old way of dealing, you know). But lately I have been exceptionally quiet.

My silence is my self-defense…

sunday songThe matters aren’t large, like a major romantic disaster — just little bits. But the little bits are many, one after another. Stress piles on until my joint aches match my heart, and it has nowhere to go but out (why does frustration turn to tears?).

Of course, sometimes the little bits, over and over, are worse than one big thing. I told a therapist a couple of years after taking my tarnished wedding ring off that I was lucky because my heart hadn’t really been broken until my early 30s. She said, “Really? I think your heart’s been broken, little by little, for years.”

You can’t see me right now, but take my word for it — I still haven’t fully recovered from that statement.

Because it’s true.

And this is why my eyes are closed
It’s just as well for all I’ve seen…

I’ve sailed calm waters for some time now, but that ended some little bits ago. I’m in the midst of a storm that I’m trying my best to weather. I’m curious to see where this is taking me, but I find myself wishing for a different way to get there (the only way out is through, though…).

I’m letting music speak to and for, soothe, encourage, and heal me. I found this beautiful rendition of this simply lovely song while getting lost on YouTube practicing songs for choir. Although this tune is about romantic love, heartbreak takes many forms, so it’s on repeat.

It helps.

This, too, shall pass, my grandmother used to say. And it will.

And so it goes, and so it goes…

In the meantime, thanks for reading. And for *listening*…

And you’re the only one who knows…


What is Sunday Song? Well,ย I’m a musical gal, from my wee days taking piano and drum lessons, to my current stint in a community choir. To me, listening to music is what going to church is for some, so I celebrate with Sunday Song. Each week, I post a song that’s been my earworm for the week or something that reflects what’s happening in my world along with a wee story why. (Feel free to join in by posting in the comments — thoughts about my video/what it means to you, a video you’re enjoying this week, etc.) Also, check out all we do at DaisySmileyFace.com.

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15 thoughts on “Sunday Song: The Rose and the Thorns

  1. Such a beautiful song, especially for my morning ]- thank you! You mentioned how the statement haunts you. Somehow, many of us of encountered statements that do that. Oh yes – in situations – but they still haunt. Keep smiling!

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    1. I’m glad you enjoyed the song, Frank. I’m *still* listening to it. It’s sooooo good, this version. Yeah. Glad to know I’m not the only one. Thanks for the comment. My smile comes back stronger every day. ๐Ÿ™‚

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  2. Tara,

    You’re right, it’s the small bits that add up over time. And we carry them with us like totems. And good for you, penning this. I think it’s a good way to process something. By sharing, but even more than that, by engaging yourself in these little bits that become great big things. Because in processing it this way, you may find the peace of mind that the quiet doesn’t always bring.

    Thank you for sharing a piece of yourself with us. ๐Ÿ™‚

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    1. Thanks, Marc. I appreciate your thoughtfulness here. I’ve laid a ton of things down over the years. Sometimes, things build, new things are added. After being quiet, and dealing, and finally venting, it’s time to toss some more. The ocean will see me soon… she’ll help me (I’ll *toss* things to her and she’ll wash them out to sea.)

      You’re welcome. Thank you for being here and for making that possible.

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      1. T Siz,

        I know from my own experience of not being a natural people person, some days are impossible. I bury myself inside a complex of thoughts, ideas and plans so that people ‘bounce’ off me. And then I hide the hell out of it by way of charm and humor. But really, there are days when I feel as if I just ran a marathon. It’s that tiring

        The ocean is a good place to go and cleanse yourself of it all. ๐Ÿ™‚

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        1. Twinsies! I start making lists and planning escapes to fun places — anything to not be here, with The People. I’m also charming and funny (and humble… OBVIOUSLY). It is EXHAUSTING! I agree.

          The O-ceeeeeee-an is the bestest.

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          1. People think I’m outgoing, which is hilarious. They obviously do not understand the irony to my personality. I’m satirizing! Everything!

            Yes it is. When I watched Tom Hanks on that deserted island, I’m not gonna lie . . I was jealous.

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            1. Me, too! Oh. Em. Gee. Twinsies again. I can be, when I need to be, but I’m also frequently f*cking with people and they just don’t know it! ๐Ÿ˜‰

              As Ms. Kelly Clarkson would say, YAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSS. Therapist: Write about the Tom Hanks movie where he’s alone and why we need people in our lives. Me: Are you insane? That’s a DREAM COME TRUE!

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            2. Yes! I do that ALL the time. It’s definitely a coping mechanism for me.

              And here’s the thing. By the time he decides he’s had enough of the island, he’s already got it made! Which makes his ‘escape’ lame. I mean, dude has a great tan, he’s toned as all get out and he can eat well!

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  3. Tara – that song was pretty and the lyrics dense.
    And as youbshare your heart in this post what I really appreciate was you were not victim minded – there is a strength in your voice that comes thru as you vent and share.

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    1. ‘Tis one of my favorite Billy Joel songs, and he’s not one of my favorites, but man, is that a beauty. Aww. Thanks. Nope, I know people are who they are. Sometimes, it just takes time to come to terms with that. A strength in my voice? Thanks for letting me know you *saw* that here. Sometimes, as another friend reminded me recently, I forget I am as strong as I am. I appreciate you reading and commenting so thoughtfully. That helps, too. ๐Ÿ™‚

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      1. Yeah I think we all forget various things at times – and cs Lewis said we need to be reminded of things as much as learn new stuff (something like that)
        And on another angle – we are also human – we fed – and we need time to heal and process -especially if it was layered and building – and so I just sense this fully aliveness in ya and really glad to connect this week (again) ๐Ÿ˜Š

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